Carl Vilhelm Holsøe, Woman in an Interior with a Mirror (oil on canvas) (1898)
Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountainside,
And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year’s bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go—so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, “There is no memory of him here!”
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.
–Edna St. Vincent Millay, “Time Does Not Bring Relief” from Collected Poems (Harper Collins)
And there’s a storm that’s raging
Through my frozen heart tonight…